For F

The first smile I saw was one of melancholic tone, you never really made me understand your true sorrow but I knew something or someone had torn a piece of you away. Tears stream my face knowing I may never get the chance to embrace such neediness from that melancholic smile again. My heart stopped briefly when you text me or phoned me, I felt young again, I felt like this affair was my resurrection. Your lips and tongue searching my mouth for that passion that stirred within us as you embraced me like no other could. I could not feel more alive than when your arms held me so close as you flooded me with your love, your moans of passion were so sincere and real that dreams couldn't be this overwhelming. Your eyes, oh how your eyes entranced my very soul that if I could have had the courage to tell you right then how I felt maybe you'd still be here holding me in the coldness of the day.

I should have told you that I loved you F, at that very moment I would have given everything to be with you.

I saw her at the event, her row right in front of mine, embracing the love of her family around her and her appreciation seeing you on stage. She loves you and right then I knew I never had a chance, I never had the right, to flood my emotions when I needed love the most, and have her suspicious or maybe even hurt. At that moment I felt so alone and I felt ashamed, but I couldn't fathom the idea of taking back how blissful you made me feel for a brief time, how you made me smile and glow. I am forever changed by you and forever grateful for your love, as short as our journey was together, I believe in my heart we may walk down a similar path together in another life. For there is no question that we walk down a parallel universe, just happened to be at different times.